I am trying to change the world.

IT'S CRAZY HOW FAST PEOPLE AND THE WORLD CHANGES. BUT, There's NOTHING WE CAN DO BUT SUCK IT ALL UP SO THAT is WHAT i'VE BEEN DOING SO FAR AND LETTING OFF STEAM HERE, SO READ ON.

life is better:)

Posted 2 years ago

hey tumblr!long time no talk.couple of months i guess, im so sorry. I was so busy fixing my life but dont worry i wont be freaking lost again!:) i know you missed me baby.LOL.so, there are many things i’d tell you today:

ONE. I have passed the AFS JENESYS program which i means i’ll be out of my country for two weeks,gonna be on japan and i’ll leave on Nov.3- my flight to Manila then dec.3-japan and dec. 19-back home. I am so excited. I mean its not everytime that you’ll get a chance to go to other countries right?!I even think that this is a once in a lifetime oppurtunity. Anyway, i did a lot of stuff just to really pass this shit. I even went all the way to Manila just to process my passport and stuff, it costs a lot too. And I feel guilty sometimes thinking that my mom have been suffering/loaning all the loans possible just for me to be one of the finalist. and Oh crap! not to mention all the running I have to do around the campus just to make up for my missed quizzes. oh yeah! i wont be able to join my classmates in the filedtrip coz im already out of the country by that time.I know that this is like a once in a lifetime chance!but still! its like my last year in secondary and im not quite sure if ill still see them after graduation plus fieldtrips happen only ONCE. yes ONCE!i really emphasize the word ONCE(LMAO). My classmates have been teasing me and they said “were gonna enjoy your absence” but i am absolutely sure they are not! theyre goin to miss me!hahah.BTW. i really wish im gonna enjoy my stay there coz ive been sacrificing a lot so i hope its gonna be worth it! and oh yeah!im excited about the SNOW! at last im gonna fucking see AND hold snow!bahahahahaahahaha

TWO.Have i mentioned i sort of joined the school paper?I guess not.so anyway i joined our school paper and guess what? i got the position of associate editor. and recently I joined the press conference feature writing.i go fourth hahah. i didnt expect i’d get a place though bec my ex-classmate also joined the contest and he was good in writing!I know its just feature and its so easy blahh blaah..but I was really really nervous and they kept laughing at me saying ‘why are you nervous it is JUST feature?’ and I said ’ STFU its my first time to join this shit!’ and they DID shut up!LOL. even though I passed the division and ill be on he regionals i still wont go!!!!!!!!!!becoz its on gonna be on the 3rd of the december and as what ive relayed to you! IA aint here anymore!SEE!ALL THE FUN THAT ILL MISS. but really im not regretting it esp. that ive been meeting some of those who’ll be going too. and just reading about japan makes me more excited!but ugghhhhhh i really want to join the regional press con.hummph

THIRD.i was sort of liking this guy and now im sort of hating this guy.Makes perfect sense right? heres the catch, he is making everyone hate me!ughh i so hate him. everyones looking at me as if im so desperate!and really i just broke up with they guy i spent almost a year with I couldnt possibly be falling really2 deep with this guy right? I know my heart is sort of dumb, confused and stupid most of the time but it IS still heart you guys!!!!!!!

FOURTH.I have been spending a great deal of my time with a person i know shouldnt be spending my time with!!ughh.I know I need a major mind renovation right now.,LMAO. what im really trying to say is that im afraid i’d like this guy but i know we are just friends but see im really scared. but nothing is wrong with what we are doing, you know going out just the two of us and stuff and going home together. you think theres somthing wrong? oh tumblr you got to answer me!FU~! please talk!(im going crazy)

FIVE. My grades are going down. haaaay i got 78 in values!can you believe it???values education what kind of devil am I?!LOL. My mom really freaked out when she got my card my lowest grade was 78 in VAUES EDUCATION.uh-oh., and she is really focusing on me ever since she got my card. It was my teachers fault!!! she gave us a freaking nosebleeding exam!

——life is getting better!:)